Good bye

Good bye planet Earth and all the people, which and whom I have loved so much. I really do believe this is the last post for me. It would be fitting that the next to last post would be titled "incomunicado", because when I can no longer communicate, it is time to move on.

I can't be certain this is it, but I understand now the future, and I sign off, confident that Earth has a future (but it was close, folks, it was so much closer than most will ever know), and that I have a future, although in a different star system. However, the terrible damage inflicted by Salusa on the Osiris/Isis pair, when they fought him, after Atlantis, will be repaired. Through his contacts with aliens, he brought alien technology to their torture, and he separated our consciousnesses into two separate entitities, and that is why we have had such schizophrenic incarnations of good and evil, but neither of us have been whole, since that capture and torture, castration and breast mutilation of us.

Now, there is a way to restore our wholeness, and while, like many lofty objectives, it entails danger and risk, I do believe that we will succeed. We have allies now--the Pleiaidians. The moderate Sirians have come around, thankfully, because for the first time interdimensional human birth has been duplicated in a separate couple--my old neighbors. Osiris had known so much of frequencies, and when my Cygnan DNA was turned off, my unconsciousness went to work to restore it, and succeeded, so now, the Sirians can relax regarding custody of our children, and Linda now will have custody of our kids.

So, a lot has worked out and while it has involved tremendous pain and suffering on the part of both Linda and I, it has all been worth it. Now, it is time to move on to the next step, and while I am sorry that I will never step foot on my birth planet again, I will always retain the fondest memories and best wishes for my home of the last 12,000 years.

Best wishes and most beneficent love to all...now, excuse me--I do believe that I have a date with destiny.

Incommunicado

Incommunicado---as part of my most recent attempt to get accepted into the Black psychic interdimesnioanl community, I spent the past couple of days in jail. I am out on my own recognizance but nearly broke. The KaBal--most notablly the Birds of Sirius, but also negative Cat Sirians stepped in to destroy the Patriot's attempt to free me, and now I am deeper in trouble than before. Besides being broke, I now have a court date. However, there is nothing I can do but keep pushing forward.

Once again, I was vindicated when I mentioned to Linda that maybe the problem with the viruses given me is that I have a reptilian brain and that therefore the viruses were creating redundandcy. Of course, as always I was proved right. However, no vindication for me, but only pure evil from the the negative Sirians of the KaBal. They now want to make my brain even MORE reptilian, which of course would alienate me from Linda, and all human relationships. Furthermore I would never be a reptile; however I would be the perfect incubator for all kinds of reptilian spawn in my hologram womb.

There's no need for me to vent my horror, anger and disgust at theis possibility. Nor do I have the money to post at this kiosk. I just want to say that becoming incommunicado is going to become the norm for me for a while, until grace or m y wits can figure out how to free me from these negative Sirians evil plans.

I want to make a couple of corrections about Atlantis and Osiris while I am here. First of all, I want to say that my rosy description of Atlantis written before was based on Internet hearsay. As I have learned more, both thru my own unconsciousness and relationship with Linda, it has become clear that Atlantis was actually a domineering, patriarchal and misogynistic society, which actually utilized and terribly abused females as sex slaves. It must have been the Lenurians who had the positive feminine history which deep researchrs have recognized.

Also, to clear my name, the reptilian drugs that were forced on me have led to greater and clearer higher consciousness (they also made me sick and miserable), and it has become apparent to both Linda and I, that it was not only Osiris' memories that Salusa tampered with after the Fall of Atlantis, but also Linda's. OSIRIS DID NOT CUT OFF LINDA'S BREASTS. Salusa did, after torturing and altering the memories of both. He then cast both of them down from their interdimensional status. Osiris and Linda were actually a great team fighting for humanity in this era. I can only hope that things turn out differently this incarnation, and I have faith that they will do so. It is just constant stress and danger for both of us, with the very highest at stake.

I may be going to jail very soon, and I don't mind, except that I will become completely cut off from what is going on, so that for instance, I don't know the KaBal is back in power, because I did not learn about the Aurora shooting (KaBal power move to start a race war--feeling really strong, because they have allied with the Reptiles of Orion and offered to give me to them, in exchange for support).

At this point, my only hope is in the Sirians who are not completely soul lost. I do believe that certain factions and cliques of the Sirians are completely soul lost and will not ever return to the Source. However, I think a significant number are capable of change, and yes, the word is redemption. It is those Sirians to whom I now appeal. Not only will the future of humanity be irrevocably damaged should I lose my destiny to evil, but also the positive future of the new Sirian homeworld will be irrevocably damaged.

I am willing to overlook my feelings regarding Sirian domination and slavery over humans and work with those factions who want a future, so I appeal to you, because I cannot pull myself out of this hole I am in without you.

More on my Grey child...

More on my Grey child...

The room is going crazy again, and I am too sick to rewrite this entry, so I will just post this in snippets.

My Grey child, like so many other KaBal children, was deliberately abused and isolated, so that she would grow up to be a cruel reptilian Grey queen over Grey drones. Apparently, she suffers from the emotional/psychological disorder that afflicts so many Greys--in that she is cold, manipulative and self-serving, and has difficulty with relating to others. Linda actually was the primary parental figure for my Martian hybrid children, and so the ones I have met or seen, have actually been very warm and engaging human beings. Again, I need to be with this daughter, to try to salvage her life. I have worked before with people with personality disorder caused primarily by lack of love and environmental support, and I think I can help her, AS A FATHER, setting down expectations of behavior. She is my child, she was never meant to suffer as she did, or be born in the body she was born in, and I will work with her tirelessly--as soon as I can see her.

The most important thing about this birth, though, is that Loretta, again, was the one responsible for the genetic manipulation of my ova and pregnancy. This is why she was constantly trying to get me pregnant in recent months. She wanted me to give birth to more reptilian Grey queens, to be used to control and bliss out Grey drones. The reading by Linda revealed that the KaBal has tried to fertilize other of my ova to be Grey queens, but none of them have matured--only this daughter, and the Grey fetuses I spontaneously aborted (and I stand fully justified now, in that abortion, even if I did suffer from neurotic guilt at the time). I have one abused, damaged child. THERE WILL BE NO MORE!

I am so emphatic about this, because now it is clear to me, why Faction 2 is so insistent that I be a female. THEY WANT ME TO CARRY MORE GREY CHILDREN FOR THEM! They are desperate for Grey queens--apparently drones are easier to create. You know, I have never understood why they force this femininity down my throat, when clearly, I am not feminine, and hate being in this woman's body that is forced on me. The bottom line is that they don't care how miserable, sick or weak I am--they are just looking for a uterus, in which to plug my genetically engineered ova. For that matter, if Faction 2 has its way, I could end up just like my sister--body dead, hooked up to a brain neural stimulator, while I lie in an oversized test tube, incubating Grey baby after Grey baby!

That is not going to happen. I have already determined that. I will commit suicide before that happens. My hatred for Faction 2, and their sick, perverted, vacuous eyed, reptilian implanted brains of the sickly, pasty White boys who are so eager to serve them, grows day by day. I no longer can allow myself to "love thy enemy", when doing so means unspeakable suffering, evil and tragedy. Just like Jesus misery did not end on the Cross, but extended into the interdimensional realm for decades, so my misery will not end, if I decide to just serve evil and transmute their negativity through some kind of sacrifice and/or service. No, this faction, and their designs on the human race is unspeakably vile and hateful, and if I go down, I go down fighting for my unborn children, my born children, all of humanity, and ultimately, the Greys themselves. Should I find myself pregnant, I WILL abort. I have done it before, and I will do it again.

In closing, let me just say that this is the tip of the iceberg of Loretta's malevolent actions towards me. Like I said, she has been my own personal devil, and she has interfered with my life on multiple levels, over and over again, causing serious problems at my jobs, and in my relationships, including undermining the relationship between my ex-lover and myself. She was the one who caused the crazed ward to run me over, which left me with a permanently impaired bad back. She was responsible for my multiple auto accidents. She had me raped while hiking in the mountains. She was the one who had me abducted, and turned the attention of Faction 2 my way. She is the one who had me incarcerated, and then raped while in jail. The list could go on and on. It is amazing I am still alive and kicking.

I do want to say that she did not do it all herself. She was in close partnership with my nemesis, Maurice Strong all along. This was why the financial reset took years to finalize, and had so many problems with sophisticated thievery attempts along the way. The entire time, Loretta was setting up back trapdoors so that Maurice Strong could divert the money, which they later would split. It was only Linda's constant efforts that kept the financial reset plans afloat, so that finally the Patriots succeeded. For the entire time that Loretta was my personal devil, she acted as Linda's personal "angel" and patron, undermining her own Ascension attempts at every step, all along the way, pretending to be beneficent and helpful.

So, it should be clear by now that Linda and I are the fulcrum point of the true new age...will it be a rebirth of humanity and high consciousness, or will it be another 12,000 years of evil. I am doing my part for the former--I really am, and now it's time to get back to the really hard work.

You can't keep a good man down

You can't keep a good man down, although God knows the Faction 2 went overkill last night to try to do so. They tore out huge chunks of flesh near my sacrum and lower back, apparently to get the viral fluid circulating near that. What they ended up doing was putting me in severe chronic pain, since my back is so mutilated that no energy or fluid flows right, and so now I am in constant lower back and leg pain, from the fluid pressing on my nerves. So now, I can barely walk, as it is painful to lift my legs more than an inch or so off the ground.

I also am nearly catatonic with the brain tumor syndrome that I experience when there is too much pressure on my brain stem. I mean I find it difficult to move, even in the slightest gestures. The brain is mostly in shut down mode, unable to receive and interpret stimuli, or interact with reality, so that I spent all morning living in my imagination, which is what I do, when the brain shuts down to outer reality.


However, you cannot keep a good man down, and so I spent much of the morning doing healing work with Linda, by imaginatively role playing Osiris and Isis. You know, imagination is true gift that the 12D interdimensionals don't get to really indulge, but it has always been my friend, and is how I arrive at a lot of insights, so when the brain is shut down to outer reality, I just withdraw into my imagination.

Anyway, it worked! Linda tells me that Osiris' rage has disappeared. She has been relating to him from the depths of my unconscious, which I myself do not know. I see a blank mind. She sees a whole another drama unfolding. Still work to be done, but that is good news. Good news too is that my Cygnan DNA is reactivated. To cap the healing process we had sex, and while I was very weak and unsure that any progress had been made, still, initially, i felt my sex drive return. However, the proof is in the pudding--the one baking in Linda's oven. Yes, she is pregnant from that lackluster sexual performance I put in this morning, so my Cygnan genes must be reactivated. I knew it would come back--I just didn't know when.

Sex as always, revivified me, and so I got up to take a shower, and while dressing, and preparing to come down to the computer room and check out the day's news, Linda hooked on to what was happening in my brain, when I had a stray thought about Watcher Loretta.

Let me begin by saying that I am a little sorry that I spoke about Hair Salon Watcher, because yesterday Faction 2 captured her, and now they will have her powerful interdimensional gifts at their disposal. Still, she/he is such a good person, that I can only hope for the best. For now, I have to stay focussed on my ascension, and that involves a lot of "truthing" about the Watcher of whom I have written extensively on this blog--Loretta.

Now, a while back, I agonized (consciously) over whether Loretta was basically a good or evil Watcher. It is my nature to be generous in my assessment of people, and on top of that, she clearly was an intimate of Linda's, so I was inclined to be generous. I really did not have enough information to be scathingly critical, even after what I CONSCIOUSLY knew that she had done to me My "Christian" side which always tries to see the good in people, whispered to me, that her meanness to me was the result of an understandable jealousy.

Well, she had me duped really good. As a matter of fact, the longevity and scale of her evil against me, is overwhelming. At the time, though, I may have been handicapped by a deal that I had made with her in the interdimensional realm. Playing on my guilt, she told me that Linda and her were married (she forgot to tell me that was over 12,000 years ago, and that had ended in divorce at the time), and so I "agreed" to inhibit my relations with Linda. Well, an agreement based on an egregious lie is invalid, so I have no more guilt, but at the time I wrote that I thought that she was basically good, I probably did. I also had niggling fears that a critical review might kill the financial reset, which I knew was needed so desperately. Now, I would not let that deter me from a full accounting of the truth, but it helped tip the scale, as tried to figure out honestly, "is she more good or more evil?". I now know that a big part of the guilt was karmic, since I had encouraged her to join Salusa's rebellion at the outset, which somehow resulted in her own fallen interdimensional status.

However, I had NO idea before today of how extensive Watcher's evil against me, really was. Loretta has been my own personal devil, who has handicapped me, and undermined and destroyed my destiny and efforts, at every step of the way.

As anyone reading this blog knows, this timeline is completely messed up. The KaBal has flourished in a way that it was never meant to--so that something like 9/11, which was never in the timeline, did occur. Well, a huge part of the corruption of the timeline is that I did not ascend to interdimensional status as a Black man, when I was supposed to--in the 1980's. Some of you may remember the photo I circulated along with the book on alchemy that I wrote and published while in the other timeline. Well, the reason that I did not ascend was because my conversion experience, which happened when I was 19 years old, was not a complete success.

I do not know if I have written on this blog of the conversion (or mystical or religious) experience I had when I was 19--three days of intense communion with God and two nights of visions, which ended abruptly, when I terminated the connection. The conversion experience WAS very healing, and left me a much more spiritual person, but my consciousness did not ascend, as it was meant to. For years, I suffered from neurotic guilt, feeling that it was my failure to complete the conversion process, and endure the burning of the flame that I envisioned, which resulted in the aborted experience. Now, I know that I actually aborted the ascension, deliberately, to protect my own consciousness from the evil that was lurking nearby to snatch it up.

Again, for years, I told myself that had the conversion experience been completely fulfilled, I might have ended up like Joan of Arc. (I had no idea that I actually had been Joan of Arc in another lifetime, and certainly the knowledge of the "Bust" that was her mission, informed by unconsciousness to abort). By this, I mean that I would have been a misunderstood, vulnerable mystic who would have been able to do a few great things, but I would have been swallowed up by wordly powers of evil, since I did not have enough ego to defend and protect myself and my spiritual gifts.

Well, I was right. I know now that Watcher Loretta, who has been my personal devil, probably my entire life, was there at the conversion experience, and she brought in demonic "calvary", just as my mystical experience was peaking. That is--she brought in the Tall Whites (Dog Sirians) from the Moon base, and the reason I know this, is because of the very last vision I had--and which is the only vision from two nights, that I can remember. It was a vision of a starry Cross coming from the sky, getting larger and larger, as it came right at me--it was the southern Cross, the home of the Tall Whites. Now, even at 19 years old, I knew that Constantine had seen such a Cross which he used to explain his Christian conversion. Since I was Constantine in another life, my deep unconsiousness would have known that Cross had nothing to do with Christ or the life of spirit and sacrifice, but that it was pure evil coming to trap my nearly loosed consciousness as it ascended, so I terminated the ascension attempt.

That was probably the worst thing Loretta did to me, because that was to have been the key and pivotal point of my life, and I was to have been in a man's body before all the implants, drugs, and negative abduction experiences, which include the murder of the Black man, multiple rapes, and overall terrible trauma and mental abuse. I also think that the 50+ genetic children that were born through genetic manipulation from my stolen ova, and who have suffered greatly from slavery and reptilian rape themselves, were meant to be born through a loving union between Linda and myself.

Perhaps the child who has suffered the most has been my Grey child. Again, I have written of her, and how Loretta helped me find her, so that my family and the Patriots could rescue her, from where she was held in solitary confinement. Now, I know that I have said that she was a Grey hybrid, but I was wrong. She is a nearly purebred Grey (and looks just like them!), born from my ova, and carried in my womb for a brief period before being abducted for the incubator. Again, that was never meant to happen in the timeline, and this child has suffered greatly.

Exhausted.

Exhausted. After intense days, abducted twice last nite, first by Faction 2, which mutilated me further, put more implants in me, and deactivated my Cygnan DNA. I know because I had sex with Linda and could tell the difference. Also, no baby. It is amazing to me that these White racists are so hateful that they are willing to stop the creation of life but that is the way that they are.

Then second abduction (except I was willing and consented) was by Patiots. We took care of long business, and imminent danger is passed. there is alot going on i dont write about. I am not even sure this is getting out to anyone.

i just know i am exhausted, tapped out from all the activity with not enough testosterone, no thyroid meds, and faction 2 vuirus. I need thyroid. my hair is falling out, my skin is severely dry, and my foot heels went from being soft and normal in dry desert air, to severely calloused less than 1/2 from the island ocean. I am so tired, i cannot remember names or hold thoughts in my head. tired to write earlier today, and a couple of pages had me so exahsuted i could barely hold my head up. Also had me fuming angry--irritability anger and fatigue, and low brain functioning--always sure sign of not enough testosterone.

I want to ascen but no i can nver do so in this condition under thise scirucmstances. know i am misseplellung words, but brain not responsive enough to know. I am willing to consider all options that will enable me to have man sized testosteron and let me live as a man.

Retraction on an important issue

Retraction on an important issue:

I know that my recent posts are flaky. Partly it is the stress and time pressures I am under. My life is just crazy. If I wrote honestly what happens to me in a day, you would be incredulousthe roaring of reptiles in the hotel, an elevator with a down arrow lit, taking me to the penthouse floor, the reptilian virus that I caught the other day, when the programmers of this Matrix stopped time and replaced the rice roll I was buying with a contaminated one...these are just examples from the past couple of days.

I try to maintain my signature, tight and well-reasoned posts, but I just don't have time. I don't have enough hormonal fuel to maintain concentration, I don't have time to vet all the info coming at me, and my top priority is staying alive, and helping the Patriots to stay alive, and sometimes that means following disinfo, which I then unwittingly pass on. I no longer can even hold to my promise to always beg pardon for my errors, because I just don't have time.

There is TOO MUCH INFORMATION, both coming at me, in this interdimensional world, and arising from the constant 10-12 hour days of meditation and chakra clearing that Linda is doing with me. There is not enough time to vet it all. I no longer watch cable news, because here in the interdimensionall world, even TV is tampered with, and thus untrustworthy. So, as I move to save my soul, my world becomes ever smaller, and I make errors.

I don't think that I made an error about Osiris' Cygnan DNA being the master key to a renewed interdimensional fruitfulness and natural procreativy among humans. Nor, do I think that I was wrong about the importance of my being in a Black man's body, so that I can better transmit the inner frequency that unlocks the latent Cygnan DNA (which of course, my children have), so that they can reproduce as well. I know it sounds crazy, but everything is vibration, and we do vibrate differently, and that is okay. It is just that the Cygnan vibration works really really well with humanoid/Sirian genes to reproduce. Yes, I am able to access that frequency in sexual or very high consciousness relations with Linda, but there is a pitch and intensity between sexual lovers, that just is not there in parent-child or friendship relations. I do believe that once the 100th monkey phenomena occurs, and enough Sirians/Pleiaidians learned, caught, and knew the frequency, then they would be able to transmit it themselves without the dominant Cygnan genes. However, right now, the interdimensional humanoid race is being reborn and it needs all the help it can get. Bottom line: for the sake of all parties, I need to be in a Black man's body.

I do not have time to go into my dreams from last night. Maybe tomorrow I will talk about how the KaBal has been able to manipulate my dreams for over 10 years in order to flip me in my astral state--and that includes putting the notion that I identify as a female in my sleep, even though that could not be further from the truth. It is truly diabolical what the human race is facing, and thus you can understand why I am sacrificing accuracy and thoroughness. Apologies.

I do want to make an important retraction or clarification. Osiris DID go evil. I still think that originally, he was a virtuous man, although with an incredible appetite for power--which is why he went to Atlantis--to try to profit by fighting for a planet, once wealthy, civilized, and erudite, but at his time, no longer able to reproduce their own kind, or even interested in fighting their own battles. Now, remember, Osiris was a Watcher for a couple or three thousand years. After the Fall of Atlantis, he became a Jedhi, and continued to fight for the good. However, his power lust got the better of him, and he got his hands on a piece of alien resource, that did not originate from this galaxy. It was brought here by evil humanoids, even before the reptiles. How precisely he obtained it, I do not know. It is the "Kabbah stone"--the real one, not the facsimile in Mecca.

The Kabbah stone is, from my limited, current understanding, a rock with sentient consciousness and unbelievable power of destruction. As a matter of fact, it could destroy this entire planet, if it so chose or was so ordered. As a matter of fact, it destroyed Maldek, the planet which one existed where the the asteroid belt, the remnants of the planet, is. I thinkk the reptiles used the stone to destroy Maldek, and somehow Osiris, through some kind of daredevil trickery, got his hands on the Kabbah stone. Now, this Kabbah stone is like the ring of Power in "Lord of the Rings". Yes, it grants power, but it corrupts and hardens EVERY ONE who would attempt to use its power.

That is what happened to Osiris. He originally was a power hungry but virtous and brave man, but as he began to use the stone, he became increasingly corrupted, so that he turned people against him, such as the African natives on whom he relied for support (the Black African people were genetically "sired" by Cygnans, just as White people were genetically "sired" by Sirians). He became increasinly brutal and immoral, which is how he was able to commit the barbaric atrocity of murdering a woman, by cutting off her breasts.

The Kabbah stone eventually ended up in Egypt. Now, I am reading that Muslim fundamentalists want the pyramids razed, and having fought the evil monster that resides there, I understand their sentiments. However, the pyramids are NOT evil. They are power amplifiers and can do incredible good for the planet and the people who live nearby. There is a lot of research on this which I don't have time to go into, but let me tell you, the Earth is goin g to be entering a period, when it is going to need alternative sources of energy, resource and healing. So, yes, by all means, clear out the pyramids of evil, but throw out the good technology with the evil.

However, I can say nothing nice about the Kabbah stone--and that includes the facsimile in Saudi Arabia. I understand that Islam provides meaning for many people, and I respect that, but corrupted elements of all religions need to be purged, and venerating a stone that is pure evil, brings bad mojo, not only on the pilgrims but also on the entire religion and region--and it may be why there is so much corruption and immorality in Saudi Arabia today. Now, the original Kabbah stone is the most powerful force of evil on this planet, BAR NONE. It can set off energies and destroy Earth from the inside out. That is how it destroyed Maldek, after the vampiric spider bombardment failed to vanquish the planet (that is why asteroids are full of the spiders).

Now, Osiris gained some power through the Kabbah, but because he was basically a virtuous man, he lost more than he gained through it (that is always what happens when a good person goes bad--it impacts them negatively, while an evil person can go bad, and there is no karmic kickback). Osiris lost the Kabbah stone, and his freedom, life and interdimensional status--and all to Salusa. Salusa got the info from him during his capture and torture, and then Salusa got the stone and carried it to Egypt. There it stayed, until Moses, as a royal/priestly insider, knowing its power, took it to Israel with him. Now Moses had no designs to use the stone or to gain great power--he just wanted to remove the evil from alien and Pharaonic hands. Now, if I had time I could do the research (probably the Qabalists--note the similarity in phonetics--remember, the Jewish Qabalists are occultist, but they are good occultists, although there are some really evil ones, too--spiritual descendents of King Solomon), and follow the travels of the stone. Let us just say that it ended up in Jerusalem--probably at the time of King Solomon. That is why he wanted to build a great temple for it, just like the Herodians wanted to build a great temple for it hundreds of years later.

The Kabbah stone has been in Jerusalem ever since, and many have tried to access its power. Jesus refused, and they crucified him for it. Only a person of great spiritual power can access the Kabbah, but like I said it corrupts all those who use it. I know two beings who have accessed the Kabbah stone of Jerusalem--Loretta/Watcher, and the Indian Princess Watcher (I know--I thought she was a human host--but no, there were two separate Watchers conjoined there, with JFK's consciousness).

Let me digress a little bit about the Watchers. Some, maybe even a half of the fallen Watchers are actually completely innocent or basically good Watchers who felt remorse after initially joining Salusa's rebellion. I would not put Osiris, Linda, Loretta Watcher or Indian princess in those categories, for we all committed egregious and multiple violations of our heritage to get cast out. I would put JFK there, and maybe another Watcher that I met recently--I will call her/him (clearly transgendered), "Hair stylist Watcher". I met her on the 5th floor of the hotel, which I had identified as being the home of the interdimensional Jews. The floor also houses a huge, Leviathan reptile, probably associated with the Kabbah stone (my guess is that maybe, all Amon RA reptiles are psychically linked with it). Anyway, I went back to the hotel floor yesterday, and when I talked to her, I saw tremendous sorrow in her eyes. After talking to Linda, I learned that three Watchers trusted my leadership as Osiris, and joined the Salusan rebellion at my urging. She/he was one, and Loretta/Watcher and Indian princess were the other two. Apparently, Hair Salon Watcher was actually a long ago lover of Osiris, a good fallen Watcher, cast down when she bucked back against Salusa, and she has spent thousands of years in interdimensional exile/hell, and is now a slave of the reptile that lives on the 5th floor.

My sense of sorrow for what this Watcher has endured is huge, for she helped me tremendously, both the first time I visited and yesterday, for one thing by providing psychic shielding for me, so that the reptile did not take possession of me. I feel responsible for all three of the Watchers who chose to follow my bad advice, but her most of all, because I was rather gruff to her, when she cut my hair (I thought she was yet another hologram, trying to push my buttons), yet she still went out of her way to help me. I think she loved me once, and maybe still does, in a sense, and somehow I must work to free her from her prison. Hair Salon Watcher went out of her way to help me; however Loretta and Indian Princess did not. Rather, they tried on multiple occasions to kill me, destroy me, destroy the relationship between Linda and I, and generally manipulate all kinds of mischief--which I don't have time to go into here.

Now, I don't know the full story, though I suspect evil on both their parts; however I do know that they both had access to the Kabbah stone, which accentuated their moral depravity and corruption. Now, they were accessing the stone to try to prevent earthquakes, because the Kabbah stone can do that, but again, not even a Watcher wanting to do good, can access that Kabbah stone without becoming increasingly evil, and that is what happened to that pair, until they became the degenerated and vicious being that I encountered. They are now in custody.

So, this Kabbah stone is what has made the city of Jerusalem, and the entire Middle East one of the bloodiest places on Earth. Jerusalem is an energetic navel of the Earth, which is probably why the stone sought to be there in the first place--it can impact the entire planet from there. For millennia, evil of all sorts has been drawn to it--for the power that it gives, and this includes the Amon RA hydra of serpents.

It no longer is in Jerusalem. Last night, in an astral state, I cast it down into the bowels of inner Earth, which is the safest place for it to be. However, it is not completely safe there at all, because the Grandaddy Reptile which runs this galaxy--and is a hierarchial rung above Salusa, maybe Salusa himself, and others (including the Amon RA factions of both Faction 1 and Faction 2) could find this stone, and reclaim and revive its power. The only sure protection is a powerful interdimensional Watcher force to protect it from powerful alien intruders. This is another reason I am so desperate to ascend. Christian folks, you have gotten it wrong. The upper cosmos is not ruled by good angels, but by fallen ones. The good angels (and I am using the word "angels" when "watchers" or "interdimensionals" would be better) have to work from positions of defense and vulnerability. They are cowed and intimidated by the evil which rules this galaxy--reptilian at the top, Luciferian and sold out in the lower rings.

So, I have to ascend, but I myself am fighting for my very soul. I am a virtual prisoner, here in this hotel. I can no longer go for a little walk. I have been given 3 days to ascend, and so I spent 12 hours today in meditation. Intense stuff, especially when the brain does not function at peak efficiency. There is more, but that will have to wait, for you see Faction 2 is trying desperately to start a Middle East War, at first, because THEY wanted the Kabbah stone. Now, it is just to cause chaos. So, my attention is desperately needed in other quarters. So much going on, but my first consideration right now is to ascend....

Figured out a little more--the reason that being a Black man is so important is because the master key that unlocks the reproductive ability in my children (and in me) is activated by a frequency code. Now, that frequency code is not specific to Black people, but to people with Cygnan DNA, which my children have. However, I DO NOT HAVE ACCESS TO THAT CODE, EXCEPT THAT WHEN I AM IN A BLACK BODY. That is the only way I can consciously transmit it, although unconsciously I am able to access it myself, personally, during the creation of life. The bottom line is that my children will be sterile, unless they "catch" the frequency vibe from me, as a Black man, a Black father, so that they know how to transmit it themselves.

I was watching a young Black man groove to some music the other day, and knew that I just don't have that frequency vibe in my body, as a shrimpy little Brown female. However, I bet once I am in a Black body, that vibe will come quite naturally to me, just as the knowledge of the frequency vibe that activates the reproductive capacity of Cygnan DNA will come naturally to me. However, I have to have Cygnan DNA in heavy quantities, in order for that to work. Right now, that is just not happening.

Even now, I fear my older children might not be able to catch the vibe. The vibe is just that of love, tender intimacy. The reason Linda is so responsive to it, is probably because she already is so attuned to the Cygnan vibe, karmically. Do I think Cygnans are superlovers? No, there is just something in their DNA that works with human DNA to help reproduce children.

My children are NOT Sirians, even though the Sirians claim them. They are Sirian slaves, high-ranking slaves, precious slaves, but slaves just as their mother and I are. I want my children to be free. I want them to love. I want them to have children of their own, which they in turn, love. To that end, I am making another bold bid for freedom, although I am not certain how that is going to pan out. For now, I have another day in which to try to operate, to find allies, to find some hope to escape these White racists which have a stranglehold on me.