Drug dazed and pain crazed

Drug dazed and pain crazed as the psychotropics continue to fuck up my body and brain.  Once again, keeping my eyes shut because I can't stand the stimuli.  The drugs (Risperdal or a sister I think) are causing severe muscle spasms and back pain.  Does any of this sound familiar?  Story of my life.  I don't know how I can live like this.  Such suffering is too much.  I am so tired of suffering.