I'm actually able to lift my head today

I'm actually able to lift my head today though I still am high as a kite and my legs have no sensation. All I want to do is lay down in bed and recuperate from the body and psyche trauma of the last few days. But I don't know when the torture will begin again. I have to stock up on food and water. And even though, I don't feel like it, I have to force my deadened body to work out--otherwise I will degenerate with even greater rapidity than I am now.