Two days of migraines now

Two days of migraines now--unable to treat it because I have to hoard the fironal i have since i cant get any medical help. Head is very heavy with excess csf. tried yesterday to walk but couldnt because i am too fucked up on whatever is going on. going to be another just try to get thru day. I long for a lover, a friend, just some one woman with whom to share my misery, my suffering, my pain, my constant struggle against the goddamned religious and mib torturers. no one to help me in suffering. no meds to help with pain. life is hell. wish it were over.