In severe physical pain and psychic rage

In severe physical pain and psychic rage over continuing drugging. In addition to the neverending goddamned psychotronic implants that release virus to change my RNA/DNA so that the goddamned luciferians/satanists can point to a "new man" (the true horror and scope of that hubris and evil faithlessness, I will save for another time), I have some other drug in me that is completely draining all my energy. Just getting up in the morning takes all energy and effort. The house is a mess but I am too fucked up to do anything about it. My belly is ice cold and I know when my belly is cold that I can not get out of my head/fantasies. Its easier to stay in the head when I have no energy to do anything at all, and body is so weak that I can barely stand, or my arms can't hold a light fixture in place for two minutes while I change out a bulb. But, the worst of all, to add insult to injury, is the physical pain I am in. The goddamned psychotronic drugs cause sinus problems. I realized years ago whenever an implant download was about to occur because I would always start dripping with a runny nose, an instant before being hit by the migraine. Well that continues to occur, and now there is so much dripping and drainage in my left sinus and lymph nodes that it is putting unbearable pressure on my upper tooth, creating a hellacious tooth and jaw ache. I can't even bear to put on headphones. I can't chew on the left side. I am in constant agony. I haven't been to a dentist in nearly six years but I know it is not a tooth problem though if the pressure does not ease, sooner or later the pressure and inflammation will create one. There is no point in going to a doctor. It is not a sinus infection. The pressure is caused solely by the never ending goddamned drugs and brain implant downloads that are destroying my body, creating never ending pain, permanent damage, and loss. I apray at night for this nightmare that is my life to be over. It is too much to expect anyone to endure what I have had to endure for the last 12 years at the hands of the christofascists, and the last 5 years at the hands of the NWO luciferians/satanists. My tooth/jaw hurts so bad. How can I endure it. No pain pills. No chance of any medical treatment. Just never ending suffering. Yes i long for death..