Sick sick sick

Sick sick sick with painful, "dry" migraines. Try to watch a lil tv, cook, but everything makes me sick. Head hurts to even touch, so much pressure. Nothing I can do but lay down with a sheet round my head, and pray, pary for death. obviously this life is a bust.

Blindsided by psychotropics

Blindsided by psychotropics just when I was starting to feel better, not good, but better with all this expensive yoga classes i am taking. Goddamned illuminati fucker pigs =couldnt bear it, so now I am nonfunctional again with some drug. head wants to burst, weighs fifty pounds. desperately need diamox, but cant find it, hope motherfuckers didnt take it. probably did. cant open eyes, hurts everything hurts. cant walk, im like drunk cant hold any balance. terrible pain, misery, sadness, depression. supposeed to go to dr but am way too sick to drive. just have to survive, endure. its hard with all this bursting head paon.

Worst headache than I have had in a fw days

Worst headache than I have had in a fw days--am I being hammered with lithiym or some other psychotropic drug again, or is it just and amped up version of same old same old brain download shit so they can try to hack into my head. I am prepared--I know there is another space shuttle mission blasting off. I dread every damned space trip to that station. Not much I can do. They pretty much can abduct me at will. . I jus hate all the goddamned pain that this shit causes. Once again, cant lift head or open eyes--too much pain. Taking pills going to sleep.

Dreamed last nite

Dreamed last nite that the implants are pure poison--they make one's tongue turn black. I think I am getting greater and greater understanding of their purpose, and it is all bad. I'm too tired to continue but sooner or later I have to, I don't know if I can make any difference since my body has been sold out to the slaveowners, but I have to try. In the meantime, I continue to try to function when I feel so bad, sick and tired nearly all of the time--not to mention dealing wth the goddamned edema in my body

Suffering terrible pain caused by these stupid assholes nad the

Suffering terrible pain caused by these stupid assholes and their goddamned implants. Struggle so hard to heal my poor, tortured body, and the more I fight to heal, the more the goddamned fuckers put their goddamned shit in me. Legs are so neuropathic and swollen, I hobble with pain, cursing each time I lift a leg. My joints are all swollen and arthritic. Fucking head is a bowling ball, and eeen tho I spent a class alreadt shaking, bodyt tries to bibrate, tries to heal, get rid of the ghoddamned pressure in my fucking head. Legs are seamed again, so edemic with fluid. Want to curse, want to kill the stupid assshole responsib.e for this. if i had to name one personf it would be dave denny and his stupidass granidiose delusions of political grandeur, selling me out to powers of evil, so he could be a "player" when he isnt even man enough to deal with me as a human beign. NO use though fighing lost battles. everything seems like a lost battle. May be one dayt I can actually ahave a victory for my humanity and dignity, to get rid of these satanic implants in my brain and body (no, all you stupid misguided people who believe in benevolent space brothers--nothing divine or even benevolent about these imjplants--they separate one from God, not brign closter. But no victory today. Have to hold on. hang interher.

I am beginning to dread nights

I am beginning to dread nights--nothing but incredible headache and neruopathic leg pain, while every time I begin to drift off to sleep, some kind of neurological shock originating in my brain, but jolting my entire nervous system in mycoclonic spasm, wakes me back up. Last nite, I got to bed at five in the morning. Not a good nites sleep. Already the pain is setting in. God, I try so hard to keep my body fit and healthy, but the goddamned slave implants lead to nothing but destruction and pain.

Woke up miserable with excess csf and headache

Woke up miserable with excess csf and headache--woke up too late to go to yoga. All body hurts. I tell myself keep documenting even tho I see no end in sight. After the realization of what happened to flight744 Air France, I realize my govt is being run by terrorists, and terrorists who would murder 224 innocent civilians (maybe one or two or three could be considered world "game players"), could care less about the suffering of one innocent person who they are attempting to coerce. I'm so pissed off bbecause I am too sick to do anything today. Need to lay in bed and try to get some reading done before mybarely functional condition becomes totally nonfunctional