Friday, February 29, 2008
I've spent all day in bed--and psychotropic drug hell
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
I keep telling myself to write, to document
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Every morning I wake up hating life
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Sick 24/7 with migraines and nausea
Friday, February 15, 2008
After a one day respite, I woke up drugged again
After a one day respite, I woke up drugged again, forcing myself to wake and get up. I am thinking that there is a job I can successfully obtain, but it is a morning job, and my big question is, how am I going to be able to wake up at five in the morning for five days a week? I just have to plug ahead any way that I can. I am in a lot of pain from the implant in my lower back, but I have to keep walking. I am going to return my books to the library today. I was so excited when I was on the thyroid medication because I could read again, but I absolutely cannot read when I have speed in my system--the words on the page are just are meaningless. I am 196 pounds, and am fatter than ever. I can't help it. I constantly crave protein. I want London broil steaks and double cheeseburgers. I try to walk at least a mile every day to keep my muscles in decent shape, but the quads are locked, and my knees are tender because they are tweaking out because I can't walk properly. I don't know how much longer I can maintain. Hang in there, Tita