Lithium punch has me paralzyed--takes extreme effort of will to lift legs. Happened last nite. Woke up too sick to go to yoga, but I forced myself. Sheer hell. Every five minutes i was looking at clock to mark progress.
Gentle class but I was too dead in my body to function, and everything is so difficult. Typing is difficult. I feel like stephen hawking--a intelligence in a dead non responsive body, but not really cause im too sick to concentrate. Despair over how completely dead my body is. after three years of non stop abuse and torture from religious nuts, i have no reserve left to fall back on. all i can do is lay here in misery and wonder at what point i am going to be crawling to the bathroom instead ofusing my wheeled chair as a walker.
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