Severe migraines and autism afflicting me

11/12/08—Severe migraines and autism afflicting me—the result of whatever drug I am being force fed now. I am pissed as hell too because it is causing me to gain major weight. I am now 205 pounds. When I weighed myself on Saturday I was 199 pounds, which is despicable enough, and all caused by the same despicable perverts who drug me now and have drugged me for the last three years. They have no remorse or concern. I am their thing, their slave, and as long as I assert my free will and choice, they will hammer me with pain, agony and suffering until I acqueiscese to their demands of conformity. NEVER NEVER NEVER YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES. KEEP YOUR GODDAMN FASCIST CHRISTIAN LIVES AND EXPECTATIONS FAR FROM ME!


That being said, I am in a world of hurt. I have a sick migraine right now, and I already took a second fiornal about three in the morning. It is the third day in a row that I have had to take a second fiornal. So far, it works, dulling the edge of the pain and nausea, but I am afraid to become addicted or desensitized to it, so mostly I suffer. I understand too, now, why I have been so sick that I cant even watch TV. When I am severely autistic, I cant stand any stimuli at all. Seeing the images on TV makes me sicker and overwhelms me. Last night after some fucking Christian perverted Nazi sprayed me again with the drug, I was so sick that I had to keep talking to myself to force my eyes open—I literally did not want to take the stimuli in from the road. Too overwhelming. Now I am keeping my eyes shut because I cannot stand to see letters form on a page. I especially cannot stand to see any faces showing emotion on a web page as I open a browser. My autistic brain absolutely cannot handle the sight of a face with emotions. I also am suffering from severe depression, but how much of that is caused by just being constantly sick wand in pain with migraines, I don’t know. I recognize tho, the depression is all drug related, so I wont act onit. Just got to suffer it.
I thank God I am unemployed. There is no way I could work as fucked up as I am right now. The only thing that I have to do is survive this latest onslaught from hell, and agonize over how many extra pounds my fucking torturers are going to permanently add to my body weight this time. Torture me asshoiles. Go ahead. I want you to know how much I hate you, despise you, and will never ever have anything to do with you. Stay the fuck away from me, you fake, sex hating Christians. Go indulge your perverted sense of religion somewhere else.