Jerked around

Jerked around from one drug to another as tptb try desperately to find some drug that will turn me into one of their brainwashed zombies.  What they r turning me into is an arthritic muscled rigid bag of pain and spasms so severe that I literally cant put weightr on my ankles.  Even my jaws are spasming so bad that it is difficult to chew.   More trying to dope myself up with painkillers and benandryl to sleep in spite of pain and headaches