Lost day plus

Lost day plus--a true day from hell yesterday--so sick with lithium poisoning that I could do nothing--even watching tv made me sick.  At night I kept waking up because I would stop breathing.  It is not sleep apnea.  When these fuckers use psychotropic drugs on me, they mess up my already "different", autistic brain stem, and I think the brain stem which regulates automatic breathing forgets to breathe.  I guess at this point I have enough of a self preservation instinct that I wake up.  I don't know how.  Because honestly days like yesterday leave me longing for death.  Today I still am sick but at least I am in reality, not like yesterday.  Too much overload though. I am so sick of these fucking bastards.