Feeling better as whatever drug I am on now

Feeling better as whatever drug I am on now merely leaves me depressed, unable to concentrate or read, and with absolutely no memory of any substance.  It also makes it nearly impossible for me to wake up in the morning, which is a real bummer because I am supposed to start work tomorrow and need to wake up at 6 am (Ive been waking up around 9 or 10, sleeping through alarms that I set to condition me).  I continue to suffer from painful muscle spasms. All of this said, I can attest that at least I am able to go to work, instead of being totally unfunctioning as I was before.  Just used to being miserable and hating life all the time, but I gotta keep going.