Are the Fascists back on top?

Are the Fascists back on top? Question I ask myself after two days of hell. Gone is my recent joy at living life, and back again is the feeling of dragging thru life, suffering and end enduring pain. My head is so heavy I cant lift it. My back hurts from muscle sp0asms. But mostly it is the brain tumor feeling in my head that makes it impossible to drag thru life. I dont feel well at all. I feel like shit. try to shake but I feel to o bad.