Functional, but body is reeling

Functional, but body is reeling from the lost days. Gained weight. Back is thrashed. Still drugged--struggling to stay present to reality. so much goddamned speed in my system, i can barely function. going to tyr to shake to see if i can at least get up to do anything. just talked to my bro on fone--not even present. so fucked up on this goddamned shit.