Going bad to worse fast

Going bad to worse fast--way too much csf in head. cant move head. can barely hold it up too heavy. body going catatonic. too sick to get diamox filled. too sick to go get some hard liquor only thing that really helps. eyes dont want to open. hurts to open and move them. i have been here before. every time these fuckers do this, they nearly kill me, and they leave permanent brain damage. maybe this time i will get lucky and die.