Going to be another bad nite

Going to be another bad nite--ater a functional day (no risoperdol), more fucking bad smells and brain rushes. its not just the brain that rushes, its the whole body that spasms involuntarily. no one can sleep with that sheit going ton. body is so tender. muscle points inflamed. cant shake, bcecause head hurts to o bad to shake but that is hwhat i want . what i want is to be free of this meiserable goddmaned shit. i want to sleep normally again. wake up happy and energetic. have a life . im sick of being soneones guinea pig so they can pick my brain in my sleep. body hurt so bad God help me sleep withe hese brain rushes.