Right again

Right again--i knew i was being given some kind of extra psychtoropic, because of smell in urine. it has overpowering smell of burnt rubber. its like pure speed. body has to go and go. have no contemplative function whatsoevr. that is not the bad part. bad part is at nite when brain rushes come. only time i have had these kind of brain rushes is with lithium. i dont think im on lithium, but maybe i am, in conjuction with something else. all i know is that it is impossible to sleep with electrical jolts going thru my bodyt and brain ever few seconds. only one thing works with this (dbeen here befvore with lithiuym)--shutting down central nervcous systm. legs cant stand still, feel like they are crawling with bugs. go to move them and whole body starts shaking. energy all sytmied allover body. because i have no drigs only thing i can us is alcohol. lots of it. no one can imagine the hell ive been thru tonite and nite before last. not only is the brain in a psychotic and constantly jolted statye, my left lef is suffering from severe buirnin, firery, nerve pain. cant walk tithout a limp, feels like i have a deep muscle brusi in my quad, but it is nerve pain. impossible to work any kind of job in his misery. i m desperate for sleep but cant sleep till i shut down cns completely (tylenol pm doesnt work)--alcohol, vicodin.