way to start off new year

way to start off new year--so fucking sick I cant keep my eyes open. literally hurts to move eyes side to side or up and down. not good when i have to prep for a job intv on monday (maybe that is just a wash--it certainly will be by monday when i test on windows 2000 and excel, both of which i have minimal experience, and and am unable to study the cdroms i have). cant care too much about that right now. im trying to function with a sick headache an a body that feels like it weighs a ton ecept when i feel sheer horrific pain go shooting thru my joints and hands and feet. trying to read to figure ot what is going on behind the scenes, but am too goddamned sick to read, much less think. what is going on behind scenes--my life is fucked and miserable, by a bunch of immoral powermongers.