Horrible, debilitating, crazy-making pain gone--but still nonfunctional with some kind of drugged up psyhhotropics giving me, mentally, a migraine, and physically barely able to move. Ears are congested again. I am so used to this fucking shit and torture, that i know just to go into nonfucntional mode, but it is so hard with so many things i got to do. mY kitchen desprately needs cleaning, ogt to clean house, and get a fift for my brother. all those need to be put on hold while i stumble around with closed eyes and suffer from a back arched in muscle spasm. so tired of this shit . people ask me to write. i wfish they could be in my shoes for one day and realize how i am so fucked up on drugs tht i cannot do anything but lay in bed and suffer. worse of all , i feel that terrible pain coming back into my left side. got to lay down.
Dreamed last night of seeing a woman on a toilet seat with diarrhea coming out one end while she vomited out into another toilet seat. Reminded me of a documentary i recently saw and how on ayahuasca, and how people have to purge their evil spirits. Definitely trying to purge the evil thesee psychotropics do, but not with very good success.
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