How messed up am I?

How messed up am I? My neighbor in our duplex had a guest who was stabbed this morning, and while I heard the commotion, I slept all through it. It's as if I am on some kind of drug that just turns me into an emotional zombie. Physically I am not doing so well either. 3 days ago, I had lost nearly 5 pounds--I was at 203.4 lbs;now I am up to 206.6. Constant headaches. Tired. Back is in bad shape. Not a good past couple of days.