Iwas able to read a little this morning

Iwas able to read a little this morning before the psychotropic drug download shit took place in my brain. I feel like I am on close to finding a huge piece fo the puzzle that I have been struggling with for a year. (No, sorry Christians, it's not about conversion or vocation). Unfortunately brain and body are seriously fucked up from yesterday's hell. While i was able to do a little shaking, my body and brain are not able to move. It is going to take a while to recover and meanwhile the shit downloads continue. I am so tired, I want to go to sleep, but tll myself , no. Try to force yourself to do something, even if it just watch tv. Body and brain both so very very exhausted.