Which is worse?

Which is worse? The never ending chronic pain, headaches, muscle spasms, and premature physical debility or the depression caused by the hellish circumstance I find my life in. Even sleep is no longer a refuge, as I am so fucked up that I no longer even dream, tho I do occasionally have the nitemares of the desperately ill. Considering how I feel when I try to go to sleep and wake up, desperatly ill just about covers it. I don't know how to respon anymore, for that matter I truly do not want to live anymore. I have no one, no thing to make my suffering bearable. I just wish it were all over.