Lost day

Lost day--sick with psychotropics. spent all day in bed. too sick to think on anything, just suffering. dreamed that my credit card had been closed. interpreted it as my vital energy shut down, slammed shut. for that is what is happening, too sick to do anything at all. i cant even listen to music or nature sounds (which soothes me when i feel so shitty i wish i were dead). windows software is toast, fried by virus, and im too sick to do anything about it, not to mention worried as to how i can keep living when i am going deeper into debt everyh month. my life is so hard, want to sleep and just not wake up to feel like the shit i feel like