After another lost day, body deteriorating

After another lost day, body deteriorating--cannot touch my toes from seated position, lower back is permanently spasmed, feels out. cant do down dog. cannot bear my own weight on wrist joints and fingers, which feel severely arthritic. cannot evn do cat.cow. belly muscles are so spasmed that i cannot lowr them to ground on top of all this is the never ending headache which makes any interacxtion with reality apoinful--even tv is too muchj. need to keep it all down. dont see anything changesing. no hope. no future. just unremitting suffering. fine. ll is going to come out.