Another bad day

Another bad day--nearly passed out in the truck and feeling like shit now. All kinds of shit going on but I cant get a grasp on it because i am too fucked up on this goddamned alien shit that destroys my body and brain (all the better to serve the evil empire, my dear). on tv watched segment on brain damage and rewiring--i realize that i now clearly am suffering from symnptoms of brain damage caused by the lithium. I never used to shut eyes and move hands when talking. too sick to make any sense. need to go to bed, knock out on alcohol tylenol pm and hope i wake up tomorrow feeling better.