After hell nite

After hell nite trying to recover. Pain from last nite unbelievable. now im still in pain but im so goddamned drugged as to be barely functional. severely autistic. in the inusrance office, i had to change chairs. the cutout they had of a waving woman actually looked like a real woman to me, with real emotional affect that was impacting me. God help me. I am so fucked up on these goddamned drugs. just want to end it all. especially the goddamned pain.