have the fucking pigs put me on lithium again?

have the fucking pigs put me on lithium again? ask because i am goint catatonic again, severe back and abdominal wall pain. head and neck is catatonic too remember very clearly how mny entire abdomen locks up on lithium. cant live thru another nite of pain like last nite but already so fucked up i m going to have take major painkiller to sleep. needkess ti say, i an totaolky nonfucntional. if there idea is to prevent me from going to dr. it is working. too goddamned sick to do anything. also, gaining weight, and as with lithium, have zero appetite. eat to stay functioning blood sugar and insult to injury gain weight. im so sick of this shit. s sick of this shit God, end it please end it.