Monday, May 17, 2010

was i wrong--another day in hell

was i wrong--another day in hell--so drugged im dysfucntional. too sick to care anymore. realize everything i do is a waste--trying to find job, yoga, everything a waste. i am set p to be some goddamned channeler and they dont care if they rape my mind body and sirit to do it. dont give a damne about my life, free choice or will. i am worse than a slave. im not even taken care of. too sick to do anything. exctpt fantasize about death....just saw face in mirror, grotesquely swollen and misshapen with sick psychotic pupils with no irises. so fucking derpressing to realize and know how desperately i need someone to love and support me and all i have is this whale of a body i can thank the goddamned catholicss and years of drugs for, and a face that doesnt even look human. no wonder why i feel like shit. nobody could handle the mount of fluid that is in my head right now. take all kinds of shit to go to sleep but i think tomorrow ber just as bad.

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