Relentless doping

Relentless doping--after a brief respite in the morning it started up again. i tried to do brain wave stimulation to get mind clear enuf to move, but body is so fucked up and muscle locked all i can do is feet flap. now i cant even do that. totally fucked up. desperate to go to bank and post ofice but am too fucked up to drive. all ic an do is lay down. takes effort to even open eyes. eyes just want to stay shut. worse of all im gaining weight. nothing i can do about it. i am too sick to go to gym tried other day, and some fucker drugged me so i could barely move. can barely move now. cant lift up my dead legs, and even arms and hands r dead, and it is fifficult to lift even a spoon. i should care that i am dturning ainto a fat blob but ruth is am too goddamned sick to care about anythin.