Drugs making me severely autistic

Drugs making me severely autistic--cant stand any kind of stimul. have to keep eyes shut or focused in small areas. too much stimuli to process. cant read---surreal. words are. They have no meaning--because meaning is given by emotions and I feel no emotions except anger a t the stupid fuckers who are destroying me. Going to go back to bed. dayd reaming only thing that gives me peace--i wonder if i am on risperdol--that is only thing i can do when on risperdol--go into fantasy world try to escape physical pain of my spasmed muscles. muscles spasming. too gooddamned sick to do anything about. it.