Up and down

Up and down--not mood swings, but indicators of how much pressure is on my brain stem. I realize now that the last four years and continuing now, I have been living with a defacto brain stem tumor, and believe me, it really impaccts you on every level. I should try to write when I feel healthy but when I felel healthy I want to do other things. Don't feel healthy right now. Eyes want to shut. I dont understan d why I have to live thru this miserable hell all the time. too sick to argue. Bedtime.