Friday, December 24, 2010

Hair falling out again

Hair falling out again, means thyroid pulled. Impossible to tell. so drugged that I am walking like zombie. getting ready to go watch tv. tried to read this morning. cant too drugged. sad my house is such a mess for christmas. but glad that i got prepared food and tv dinners and frozen pie. at least i can eat dessert. eating sugar to try to get energy so dont feel like lifeless stmp. doesnt matter. jordan maxwell says shit will hit the fan later this year. can i live that long? mother fuckers chopped off my shoulders and arm muscles, lost one inch arm length maybe more. find it hard to drive, body is all wrong. body will never feel right again. try to accept it. but it is hard when im in so much nerve pain. thank God ive got painkillers. cant drink. so sedated and drugged that alcohol sen d me to sleep. what is the illuminati end game? for me to become the vapid, inane, mindwiped femmebot of all the poor machine fucked femmes that i see around me. too sick to go into it. body starting to hurt. even the upper back release of pain that i experienced for a couple fo days was a lie--all the motherfuckers did was cut out muscle which cut out lactic acid which builds up , due to the virus. now fthe lactic acid just building up again. why dont the fucking pigs ever cut out fat. in al ot of nerve pain in joints. but just too drugged to care.

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