so fucked up

so fucked up can barely move. cant see straight. whole body hurts, especially right flank. i was given some kind of painful injection. at first i thought it was monthly shot of haldol. i know--i was given a shot for a month of haldol upon leaving psych hospital. but i now think it is virus. guess they dont like the way right side works. all i know is im praying for death--rleal death, not the sould death of the mindwiped, vapidly grinning luciferian drones who keep smiling at me as if im one of them. Id kill myself first. wont need to, though, these fucking luciferian PIBs will kill me first with their drugs and chemicals. every muscle, joint in body hurts. can barely open mouth and chew. just want to be free of the pain. even tho it is early morning, going to take another vicodin to try to escape pain. yesterday, tried to ride bike. viral download hit so hard, i coudnt cook christmas dinner--ate frozen lasagna for christmas dinner, spilled some of the floor. too sick to even pick it up. got to be careful not tos step in it. went to bed at seven or so, so sick with the viral download not in reality, just want to escape pain. going to take vicodin, go to sleep, not going to be abvle to do anything today, except suffer, groan, wait for deliverance of death.
oh one more thing--luciferians are doing sophisticated hacks of my dreams. cant even ty to escape by dreams. but i know. taser, nut, o closeted, beans--maybe when i feel better i will write about their higher level of brain hacking on me.