excruciating pain

excruciating pain last nite, go out of my mind try to deal with pain. today just dsyfucntional. hysterical laughter. too sick to even drive to farmacy to pick up meds. robaxin for muscle spam. it is excess fluid that hurts so bad today pressur on all joints even hands are so fluid filled not only arthritic but literal pain form excess fluid on iplants. im supposed to go to physical therapist tomorrow. dont know if ill be able to make it. dont know how i will make it thru today. wish iwere knocked out dead, not feeling the horrible hell that is body and alienated psychotic mind.