my days r sheer hell now

my days r sheer hell now----severely depressed at best, so much so that i cant read or think. I think im suffering from sertontin intoxication. remember seeing wino wake up in walgreens prkgn lot years ago, when this shit first startged happening. i knew that i suffered exactly like he did. i think the goddamned psychotropic cocktail the luciferians include in the viral downloads include major serontonin. that is why the goddamned mindwiped drones always look so cultically blissful but its not real. that is whfy im so against liberal use of antidepressants--machine prepping us for chemical bliss of "Anna" the V queen, but it is not real bliss , not real joy, not real at all. psychotropic download so bad in severe pain--musclees all locked in back and legs. tried to watch tv but too goddamned sick to even watch it. i dont know how long i can endure this kind of hell. huse is a mess . i cant remember last time i fetl good, now just want to knock out. head too heavy. one last thing. dry migraine--for the last three days, i have had the clay texture of migraine stool--while the viral download only cause pain whn extreme, the migraine symptomoology is caontst--that is why feel so bad---arms hurt to type this. quit.