Am I on fucking lithium again?

Am I on fucking lithium again? I am experiencing the familiar brain rushes of lithium. cant notice feeling any worse because i feel so bad all the fucking time. I am constantly nauseated. Now, on top of everything else, my hip and pelvis is pulling out due to all the constant, locked spasms my body endures. It almost makes me laugh when I read the deliberately placed story about the "Munchkin who died". If you want to make me afraid, you pieces of shit, then what you need to do is keep me alive, because the kind of pain and misery, I am in, I would rather be the dead Munchkin!