Fucking goddamned pigs

Fucking goddamned pigs have got me on lithium again. should have known last nite when brain started rushing. hbad to take two vicodin just to sleep. today is worst. so fucking sick, wish i could cut wrists. worst of all is i am so ffmiserable in this goddamned female body. fucking hate it iwht a fucking passoin. just want the boobs cut off. mmore than that tho. fucking assholes hav e fucking messed up curvature of spine. literally cant lay down flat. cant lie down now ay without fucking nazis boobs in mt fucking way. the better to rape you with my dear. fucking pihgs make me fucking sick. took all kind of drugs yesterday. will need to do it again today. too much pain . too sick to fucking sleep. wish i were dead. rather be dead than sufferin g in this mutilated chopped up hateful body. another way i know i am on lithium--alcihol makes me feel better, sharper, more clear in my mind. but i am too nauseated to drin any more alcohol. already semi psychotice. tont need more alcohol.