reduced

reduced in every way possible. lost fullness of being. lost humanity. lost body. lost brain. lost energy. so fucked up on drugs unable to even get out of bed, and when i do cannot concentrate or care about anything. fantasize about cutting on self, wish form death. cant stand the mutilated alien job that is my body. dreaming in cartoons again so know i ma on psychotropic. just too sick to really care. brain rushes jolting my nervous system. too sick to care. world entering very dangerous pphase. too sick to do anything. fred wisner is trying to get the cabal of egypt back in control (that would include Muslim Brotherhood, a birhed child of the evil cabal). Know that a lot of good people are fighting hard. wish them well. can only offer up my suffering, and God willing, my death.