Wednesday, August 31, 2011

unbearable suffering

unbearable suffering--more thatn anything else i long to knowck out to sleep. tried drinking some vodka. let me sleep for abou 20 mins. try to watch tv to take mind off suffering but nothing works. cant explain how every desperately ill i am. know too much estrogen, can barely walk or hold head. so autistic, i just want to shut eyes. such suffering just want death. i know this is frying my brfain. i know fucking goddamned sirians n jesuits dont care. Juar long for death. pray for death. anything to end misery and hellish siuffering. going to take vicodin try to knoc out--early still, but too much pain and sufferin

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