Black hole of depression and self hatred the absoulte deepest i have ever been in. nonfunctional. no energy. NONE--not even emotional energy to hate the fuckinson of bitch pigs who have destroyed my body and self identity. in a lot of pain--back completely fucked up, in constant shoulder pain, and now i have nerve pressure points pain, but the worst pain of all is having self identity stolen. i have been turned into a zombie, autistic zombie, incapable of relating to world, giving a fuck about anything. dont even want to watch news--take effor to understand, and i dont have energy for effort. i pray to God for death, but
God says endure. for what? to live a fembot zombie for rest of life. I can't see any hope--caught between reptiles on one hand and Pleidian-backed nazis on the other. there is maybe another option but i am too sick to understand, think or write about it. i am just a lump of felsh waithing for death, cant come quickly enough. To live in this body and with this mind for any peoriod of time is just sheer fucking hell
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