yep--fucking jesuits/goddamned italians

yep--fucking jesuits/goddamned italians back in slaver control of life. can tell because fucking cyclical drugs have started again. yesterday was lithium, today is something that has got me catatonic at eight in morning. cannot lift legs to walk. severe muscle pain in ribs torso, abs. dont think i have musculature to support body. even feeling it in glutes. think body is so fucked up, pain everywhere. long for the days when my was strong, muscular, male, instead of miserable, weak, wracked with neverending fucking pain and loss of vitality.

figured out why though, motherfuckers got a hold on me. they r the ones, the occult faction holding my sisters' children--and a whole bunceh others as well. more than anything else i long to free her children, but i fear that theymay be like their mother, and not have the determination to free themselves.

i tried so hard to light a fire under my sister to get her out of that toxic house, but once my abusive father died, and it was just my mom, i think she may have been lulled by the superficially "nice" negative mother into staying into a terminally toxic evnorionment. that is what these "religious" institutions--give you nice warm fuzzy feelings of dependence, make you scared of the uncertainty and hard work of freedom. i know that the italian neighbors next door to me, are involved with, among others, at least a couple of K's kids, and no doubt that is why i have been so ambivale t regarding them, but ultimately it is going to be my niece's decision whether or not they want to flee the "fleshpots" of Egypt for the scary (for a life long slave) prospect of freedom. right now the italians take such good care of their their slave needs, but i know that they will never be allowed to be fully human, to own their full selves and emotional and spiritual lives, because the goddamned italians cannot stand it in me.

they cant understand why i rage at the abuse and injustice. they think they treat me so nice, and if i would just be a nice, chemically castrated, impotent passive vessel and fill their desire for me to be a lame, worthless spiritual icon for all their unhappy, quarrelling slaves (because you don't own your own self, you cannot get along in interpersonal relationships. poor charles--always rushing to put out the fires caused by the intolerable, inhumane shackles of emotional slavery--but he loves it--playing slave overseer to a bunch of miserable, slave girls makes him feel like a "man"), would come to fruition.

so, i know i am in bad shape, and cant write well or logically, but for K's slave children--especially those under the neighbor italians domination, i have to warn you. i cannot help you, if you do not move to save your selves. the italian plan is to gyuilt trip me into sharing your lot as a slave, yes, maybe a "higher-ranking", slave with a messianic title plate over my crucified head, instead of "INRI--KING OF THE JEWS", but a slave nevertheless. i cannot do that--my destiny is to live as a spiritually free human being, just as yours is, and that is what i must insist on or die.

I tried to help my sister free herself as much as i could. I did everyting to get her out of that toxic house--to go to college, which for her, entailed admissions applications and financial aid forms, which can be daunting to a low self-esteem working class girl. she declined my offer of help. i hinted to her about moving out of the house and into an apt with freinds, once she declined college. she didn't--it was too comfortable at home with "Mom"--and maybe, she as a female, got trapped into that masochistic sense of self sacrifice--"Ive got to take care of my mom. Her life is so hard". In any case, "Mom" ended up killing her, but not after poisoning her with protestations of maternal "love", kindness, and neediness.

I cannot promise you that life will be easier as a free person. in the short run, i think it probably will be more difficult and overwhelming, but i can tell you that it will be more fulfilling, and ennobling to your very soul--something that your sirian overlords lost contact with, centuries ago. i hope you choose to honor your mother by striking out for the freedom, which she never could, and i plan to be around some way, in a supporting role, but i can guarantee you that i will never serve your occult masters, or their minions, the religious minions of the Vatican and jesuits.

they are getting ready to kill off "ratzinger" and put in a new, occult puppet--probably the bishop of NY. i cannot believe the neverending stupidity of these religious KaBalists. the only thing the catholic church had going for it were the liberal nuns, and they are moving to strangle them as well. Christian people are finally starting to realize that there need to be a paradigm shift in their history, traditions, and spiritual understanding. hopefully, some of them somewhere, ar emaking a move to do so constructively and proactively, but the catholic church is doubling down, betting that i am going to be their new female "Manchurian" saint. I am here to inform everybody, "that's a bad bet", and especially to my nieces, "bet on me busting out of my chains of slavery--both the religious occult deception and lies of the Italian-identified sirians, and the high tech grey technology of faction 2.
Better yet, don't place a bet on me at all. place your bets all on yourselves--it has been done before, and no matter what, you will come out a winner.

As for me, i dont know how much longer i have to endure this hell. i am in severe pain from where i have been cut on, drugged up and miserable, but no matter what they do to me at nite, my self remains ever stronger, clearer and more defiANT against these psychic vampires, and i am happy and proud that i have had a small part in the positive changes taking effect.

apparently the financial changes are moving forward, and that makes me very happy and relieved. every day, i am more certain that is the right way to proceed. unfortunately, there continues to be obstacles that delay full implementation. right now i am a little worried about what is going on in China. i am too sick to fully investigate it all, but remember Maurice Strong is there, and his Amon-RA infection has spread to high ranking Chinese politicos. The ouster of Bo Xilai was an attempt to purge at least one Amon-RA devotee from power, but there is at least one more, who still is causing misery and murderous mischief--Xi Jinping.

Xi Jinping has been involved in trying to hijack the financial "reset" for a while now--I think he is trying to steer the money to Strong and his allies, including himself. A more patriotic group of Chinese leaders may be trying to rein Jinping in, but with only limited success. On April 13th (remember, Faction 2's ultimate "holy day"), Jinping met with Vietnamese general, Do Ba Ty. Do Ba Ty is an Amon RA devotee. Check out the hands:

http://biengioilanhtho.gov.vn/Media/bbg/UserFiles/image/NAM%202012/Month3/Date14/CommanderOfTheNetherlands.jpg

So you have two Amon-RA devotees meeting together, and what happens? A strange outbreak of a "mysterious illness" afflicts a village, and nearly 200 are sickened and 20 die. Can anyone say bird flu? the ramifications of faction 2 being dominant in china, through Maurice strong, or this Jinping, with their total lack of regard for human (including Asian) life, and access to bird flu weapons of mass destruction, is too much for my mind to lay out right now. However, anyone reading this post is intelligent enough and hip enough to figure it out.

maybe later i will write more, about other things, including the fact that some faction of the chinese attacked a gold bearing (for the new financial "reset") ship in the Pacific. lot of obstacles, but i remain confident everything will be alright. Go Patriots!